Hot mess turned Jesus freak!
BEFORE I GOT SAVED FOR REAL FOR REAL...
I was a mess, a hot mess. Growing up I had extremely low self-esteem. I thought I was ugly, stupid and never enough. I didn’t love myself so I would find my identity in anyone who would give it to me, whether it was me hanging around the “cool” mean girls, getting drunk and compromising my values to fit in, or my relationship with my first boyfriend. (I was in a relationship with a man I was “obsessed” with just because he gave me attention I craved). I would go on to repeat these same mistakes over and over again. I always knew of God because I “grew up in the church” but I didn’t enter into a relationship with Him until 2014.
GIRL LEMME TELL YOU!
God came and wrecked my life! He transformed me inside and out. Like I stated, I grew up “churched” but I was deathly afraid of God. The younger Markeisha thought of Him as this “all seeing meanie”. Growing up, all I remember hearing were “Turn or Burn” sermons or thinking today may be my last day at the playground because “we’re living in the last days”. God was cold, strict, and mean and waiting for me to fail, I thought. Then 2014 happened. God divinely introduced me to my mentor and she introduced me to Christ, a relationship with Christ. Not knowing then, but the most important relationship of my life. I finally got to see who God actually was and is. This unconditional loving, being. Once I understood God’s grace, I knew that I’d be okay and this allowed me to enter into a relationship with Christ and leave religion alone. Religion would condemn me and tell me that everything I did was wrong. God tells me His grace is sufficient for. Religion would tell me to do better, God will whisper to me, I am enough. God took my pain, my sorrow, my guilt, my confusion, my negativity and my mental disorder and replaced it with comfort, happiness, trust, satisfaction, unexplainable peace, clarity, faith and love. Real love… Now my life’s mission is thank Him by trying to help others find their identity like I did those years ago.
IF GOD CAN DELIVER ME, HE CAN DELIVER YOU TOO!
I created Authentic Culture for women to grow in Christ, the right way, the real way. Starting with a relationship with Christ. I grew up with religion and I almost left Jesus completely because I was never enough, by religious standards. Although, I am in a confident, loving relationship with Christ now, this wasn’t always the case. The thought was more easily said than done. When I decided to do this for real, I didn’t know where to begin. The Bible was confusing, prayer felt weird and worship was out of this world. I felt like a failure again. But God, in His gentleness and grace guided me through it all. Today I want to share with you what He shared with me. If you want to enter into a relationship or deepen the current relationship you have, grab my Starter Kit below and Keep in touch. Join the rest of the girls I personally help to create and cultivate your personal authentic culture with Christ. More recently, after years of mentoring girls and women, I became an Identity Coach to help women conquer the same fears, obstacles and struggles I previously suffered from.
Like I mentioned earlier, I wasn't always confident and because I didn't know my self worth, I struggled so badly in life until I found my identity in Christ. Today this is my life's mission.